yesteryear

Because I was halfway using the printer,
I thought I played with the scanner :D

when i had a bikini :P

when everybody is entitled for a reasonable naked picture !

em, when i looked like that. :D

When i was about 5 celebrating my birthday in sunday school
and notice the girl next to me is Lillian !
we only discovered this last year

When we were ten.
Yen Mei, Sanjna, myself, Yi Vonne (who WAS so SHORT) & Rachel.

When we were form 1
When Azmi was FAT !!
When i was like that.
When Matthew (my evil Lim twin) was still around.

When Jeremy & Martin were form 2 !

When we were standard five.
Spot YenMei, YiVonne, WaiHong, Tiffany, Rebecca, Rachel M, Rachel G, and myself. :D

tripping

During Chemistry


Pn Tay : Name a few things made from vulcanized rubber. (rubber that is stronger, harder etc)
Random students : Raincoat, gloves, etc.
Darren Teo : Condom !
Pn Tay : con... pauses* okay lah put whatever you want. sarcastic face*
Tania : Teacher how about those flavoured ones !
Pn Tay : .... Use ester lah !

Bahaha,
I think Pn Tay likes our class more and more cause she's being more sporting with us everytime :P

microscopic

Sorry for the lack of updates,
My life isn’t very happening lah anyway recently,

Back from a two days motivational camp thing we’ve been rushing for these days.
Darn teachers who are so last minute and throwing us their jobs
And why make it so near exams !

SIGH

There goes my precious weekend of a lot worth of studying.

A week till exams and I don’t think I’ll do as good.
Im extremely reluctant for our three weeks exams.

Anyways,
Just wanna thank Sueen for being the usual generous self and treated us to yummy steamboat !
:)
Sorry I had to leave early though.

Sigh I feel like a fun sucker because of exams.

I feel like im under that category that guy mentioned at the course today.
The one who prefers to sit alone than mingle.
Haha yes im antisocial like that.
:P

Sorry la im cranky under pressure.

School again tomorrow.
Gah, im so sick of going school !

makes me really happy

Happy Birthday SUEEN ! ( on the far left )


Thank you for being such a darling,
Thank you for caring !
Thank you for being such a friend all these years,
Thank you for that Westlife CD ( HAHA),
Thank you for the strawberry eraser,
Thank you for inspiring me everyday although you may not even know it !

Years of being friends didnt go to waste eh ?
hehe,
make sure we celebrate despite exams !




oh and Happy belated to sis who reads my blogs sometimes.
:D

***

Teacher namely the prefect teachers are such nonsense.
after using our ex-prefect room as the SPBT book storing room and giving us a 5 cubicle sized room with no fan,

1) you dont let us put our bags in it cause its too messy which is totally bogus! cause what is the point of the prefect room ?!

2) You dont let us put our school books in our lockers anymore because its unfair to students who dont get to leave their books under their desk ?!

NONSENSE !

its a locker for goodness sake it wont get lost unlike class rooms !
and what is the purpose of our lockers if we only get to put our blazers.

we cant use the lockers and we have no reason to use the room except for keeping dust.

bravo man.
Thanks for being so comprehensively attentive.



on a happier note.
i dare say im please with myself for expressing on the t making.
am i good or what huhu

on a not so good but worries me note,
i need to worry about iu.

your it!

Tagged by Jade and Yi Vonne ages ago ;

You have to type the first thing that comes to mind whenever you see these things and why?
You can't think and go back and change your answers.


1. Beer
Hanakimi hanakimi tokodokiki ! that drinking game

2. McDonald's
Apple pie babeh because its my favourite mcd product :D

3. Relationships
Lynette’s sister and bf. HAHA.

4. Purple
Syahbandar !

5. Power Rangers
Tommy the white HOT ranger !

6. Weed
Nate Archibald. Bahahahhaha. Tsk to all who only like Gossip Girls AFTER it became a series. TSK !

7. Steroids
Progesterone :P

8. Cartoons
Foster Home for Imaginary friends

9. The President
Lynette Cheng, is a gangsta! :D


Tagged by Wei Yan also ages ago :) ;

List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people
1. Lighting has no effect on me. Normally people will cover or shudder at the sight of it but I somehow feel neutral. Sigh so sad, cannot manja future boyfriend. Huhu.
2. I like eating the whole lump of garlic just like that. heck i think i just like garlic
3. HATES spaghetti bolognise but loves cabonara.
4. I think I dress up better when im with my family than with my friends.
5. Cannot stand carbonated drinks. Not even 100 plus.
6. I eat my burger according to levels. Like the bread, then the patty then the cheese then the bread again.
7. Likes everything bitter. Chocolate and coffee namely.
8. I still know every Westlife song by heart. That is before the band broke up to four people. EVERY SONG !


and more tags from Wei Yan soon :D

candlewoods

It sucks to check hotmail.com everyday to see if i got through for the BRATs program.
No I haven’t heard news.

What if they didn’t like my essay and rejected me. ._.
What if my essay never got through!
i sent by email so it could happen right?

Tolong lah I wanna get it so badly.
I thought it was easy to get in wan.


Ga ga ga.

Anyways,
Heres my 2k (?) essay.
Sorry lah if it bores you,
Its probably why they didn’t like me.
HUHU.

-----------------------------

A quiet unpredictable introvert is how my friends would describe me. A young perfectionist striving to make her mark, self conscious, affectionate and highly go getting is how I would confidently describe myself.

I was never in the “popular” group in my primary days. I believe it was because I had a weight issue that set me apart from my friends. I was an average student who scored mildly on my examinations. I felt very insecure with myself. Eventually, I got tired of rejection. It was then I started setting goals and pushing myself to achieve them, to find ways to improve myself, decide what I wanted to accomplish in life and how I could do it to benefit me but not change me wholly. Observing my peers was my tactic. I studied hard because I believed intelligent people had their way in determining their lives.

Serving and contributing to society has always given me the gratification and contentment. It makes me feel important and appreciated when I hear a simple word of thank you. I believe life is not solely on the profit you make, or the things you own but something to make you feel like you’ve made a difference. Something you’ve done to make others feel loved. In my opinion everyone should not be too busy slouching around at home minding their own business and throwing their time away but contributing to the world because we can only live once and should make it significant.

My family has and always will be the backbone to my existence. I am truly blessed and thankful to be a part of them. My father never fails to remind me to be a better person. His long but imperative lectures on the dangers of using drugs, cigarettes and such has been such a big influence to me and my perspective in life. His unwilling behavior to accompany me to watch Crime Scene Investigation or American Idol late at night will always be a favorable moment to recall. Moreover, my mother has constantly done all she can in her ability to do what mother’s do best. To nurture me, correct me and motivate me. She has never fail to be the best ear to my ramblings and the preeminent shoulder to cry on. Unlike many teenagers, she is my one and only fashion guru I look for, knowing best what I should wear on a certain occasion or when I have a fashion crisis. Lastly, my sarcastic older sister. Although we often fight like how typical siblings would, she has been the source that drives me to be better. My sister naturally sets the bar high so, being the usual competitive one, I work hard to match, or not surpass her accomplishments. Her achievements in her studies as well as her strength to carry herself to study abroad alone has truly made her a remarkable symbol to me.

Furthermore, my fondness to write has inspired and motivated me to keep a blog. I often pour out my inner thoughts and let the fluidity of my mind to wonder in that open journal I display to the world. I believe language has always caught my attention due to its amazing diversity and range of vocabulary. Keeping me intrigued to new words and its content. Apart from that, the concealed meaning behind poetry has made me fall in love with it, keeping me eager like a baby hungry for candy, to understand the beauty of its true traits. Thus, language has instigated my passion to be a journalist or pursue my career around writing, literature and much more.

I enjoy spending quality time with those close to my heart. I take pleasure in making the people around me happy because I cherish my relationships with others a lot. In addition to that, I enjoy planning celebrations and events to have a good time with my peers. Traveling or taking short walks after meals with my family is a time well spent because it bonds us closer to one another.

What I love about the world is its given priority to celebrate festive season in our respective countries regardless of the race and religion. Every culture is given a chance to gather together and share their beliefs with one another. I truly think that the world should be a multiracial, war-free and peaceful territory just as how it was given to us.

I dislike disrespectful people. They fail to see who and what matters to them and think everything else is unimportant besides themselves and what only involves them. On top of that, I also loathe people who judge others by their looks and not by their personality. Things like discrimination and favouritism should be strongly avoided. It would be very unjust to the person being judged or victimized based on their outlook.

Another fact that I dislike is my habit to over think things. Occasionally I tend to worry too much, making myself a tad bit too conscious about my surroundings than I should be. Sometimes I have to accept the fact that the world still can go round with or without me, and that I should just to sit back and relax without pacing up and down.

Every thing I have been through has truly moulded me into who I am today. Every day, every thing and every one around me; my family and friends, has been a notable inspiration to me. However, I know it is never enough, so with open arms and an open heart, I put my best foot forward, put on my thinking cap and challenge whatever obstacle that comes my way to discover new experiences and gain the never ending knowledge one can ever achieve.

In conclusion, it is hard enough if you want me to describe others let alone myself. The fear of being judge base on the phrases I use, how I portray things and how I try to depict things. Alas, I hope whatever I have mention has given you an idea of who I am. I believe that BRATs is going to offer me an unforgettable experience and I look forward to be a part of it!

“One can never consent to creep when one feels an impulse to soar.”
-Helen Keller

****

okay the only reaon im posting this because i feel like writing something but im still thinking of how to express it properly.
ahhaha.
so here's something to keep you busy lah.

verge

Tired

Im worned-out from all these things.
These things that are constantly occurring.

Im exhausted from trying.
Because it drains me dry I cant breathe.

I feel fatigued,
All these, nonsense that doesn’t make any sense.

Im bushed up,
Because I feel that nobody’s recognising.
Understanding, realising, comprehending.

not even you or you.


Im tired.
Im really tired.







The only thing that makes sense is You,
Whom I can feel encouraging me,
behind me, beside me, by me
When no one can grasp hold off, about.
My threshold to that way.
& I would know I’ll still
Hopefully.
Be okay.

when it hurts

Frustration has been my daily agenda.

Even where theres nothing to really worry or be angry about,
I still get all worked up.

I hate when things bottle up.

And the worse thing;
Im not exactly the person to shell it.
Its just plastered all over.

Adding there’s not many yous to be there.

I cant believe how the ppms teacher can even notice it.

Plus,
Its such a huge ignominy to me that I am no longer stringed to You.
I once had my rising moments
Where everything fell right into place,
Right where it should be.

Out of everything I’ve eventually lost,
I regret not being close to the one and only one that mattered to me,

Quiet time doesn’t feel as powerful as it used to and should be,
Singing doesn’t give me the chills and goosebumps and spontaneous happy tears.

Maybe its all this things that are somehow somewhat barring me away.

Yet,
It kills me to know if I’ve grown apart.


This is just so I’d know im going to try yet again.

make believe

as i promised.

Siew Lee sayang

and again.

Kay again :D

The girl with such sweet vocals. Mabel !

adorable Yin Shi :)

& Min again.
p.s/ good to see you there Min :)

Leona & um, friend.

Jade yang teramat friendly

Wei Yan

YiVonne & Gordon

Darren & Wei Yan

Kar Mern and Jocelyn

before its twelve

After strong mental debate on which to go,
I went for Seafield’s Leo IU,
Well mostly cause my friends chose to go that.
Initially I planned to go for Interact.

We were a little late;
Because we thought it wouldn’t start on time.
Haha,
Apologies.

Felt abit bored at the beginning,
Also because we were starving.
So it made it worse.
But it was better after on.
There were good performances and okay ones.

I really liked how Mabel sang Kiss Me.
Pats pats great job Mabel !

After happily stuffing ourselves with food,
We were more in a good mood and enjoyed ourselves.

Danced when the dance floor was open,
Had a good time dancing despite unfortunate events of um butt gropping which some of my friends experienced.
You perves !

Ohh ! and yesterday I notice a heel mark on my feet (hurt a little-like those subtle bengkak pain) because someone stepped on me with their sharp heel. Boohoo.

But overall it was good,
Manage to meet a few people there too.

Inspires me to add another 10x100000 percent to our own iu.
:D

Below are the pictures.
From my camera and Kay’s phone.
:)

Sorry if its too dark.

Table 25 (?)

Rachel sayang

Kay sayang

Leona and Rachel

Rachel and YiVonne

Rachel and i

Min !

There's actually more that i promise i'll do it later.
Chinese show beckons!

less napkins; spotted

more soon :)

i can see it in your eyes

Im gonna feel all guilt ridden tomorrow :(

Alas,
Yay for the beginning of the prefect interschool games ! :D


And yes
Might I add,

Was pretty sure I wouldn’t meet anyone out today,
Cause of Saturday night’s plan.
Namely this Saturday.
And I was a tad disappointed that I heard of berita itu.
BUT NO !
HUHUHUHUHU

Hehehehhehe.
I shall leave it there.
& only there.
If only I opened my mulut.
Sigh.

doctorjob

Sigh im not a very obedient blogger anymore right.
I cant help it,
It feels like I dove in to a swimming pool of… work.

Not that im THAT busy or anything,
But the thought of exams gives me chills.

I can say being in this class is the most competitive ever.
Nothing is ever enough I tell you !

Still, mid terms is a heck load important.
So is trials,
And spm.
:|

My dog has this rash on his tummy recently it became pretty bad.
So we had to buy him baby socks so he wont scratch it.
Gahhhhhhh so cutee !
Me and sis had heartaches to leave him sleeping alone downstairs,
So we slept with him.
Hurdled in between us all night.

I don’t get why my neighbour is so cruel though.
He has two dogs,
A dalmation and another dog (that Im not sure what breed of.)
Lets just call him koko since that’s her name.

My neighbour loved both koko and the dalmation unconditionally.
Bringing them for walks and bringing koko to ride with him on his motorbike.
since Koko is about the size of my dog
So one day the dalmatian fought with koko and bit her eyes out.
BIT !

So Koko is left with ONE eye.
And to prevent anymore injuries,
My neighbour doesn’t let Koko into the house (not even garden),
Letting it wonder outside the house UNDER THE HOT SUN,
Without food and water,
And letting it sleep inside the house at night only.
Yes I can see Koko everyday :(
Poor thing.

Plus, he doesn’t bring Koko on rides anymore,
Just treating him like he never existed.

Tell me how can this kinda selfish inhuman people can exist ?!

So everytime I see him I give him a glare.

Sigh,
Inhuman.

wizzy

:D

heheh huhu haha

before you i know it

Takes one to start something
Takes two to keep the effort going.
Takes so much more than you can imagine.


I feel like a stack of dominos.
Nicely prettily arranged.
Then walks a foot,
Or a little huff and poof.
There goes everything.

When you feel like your part of something,
Excitedly pumped and devoted and all out.

Then you hear that annoying voice that wakes you up.

No its not a dream or sorts.

Its whats really sort of
Happening.


Like how I’ve tried,
This way much,
That way much.

Neither really seems pointful.
(is that even a word?)

What is the !@@#%@$%& point?
Because I feel difficultly disacknowed (for short).

Makes we feel like its all just too,
Hmm,
How do I say this more directly.

A waste of time?





Little things sure as heck matters.



but why should i care right.

april 7th

OMG.OMG.OMG.

As of 12am tonight their gonna shortlist the winner's for the Happy Moment's contest !
which means you have about 4 hours to vote (!!!)

the prizes are RM 5k,RM 2k & RM 1k okay !


there's a little link there for you to read our post too if you'd like to know what on earth your voting for.

so here are the links one last time :)


1) Lillian's
2) Tze Yin's
3) Myself


click here to check the stats

i've got to, i've got to

Heeelu !

So kan,
Sports day was yesterday,
I had to do that purple house sepanduk that was prolly used since the school started,
It was so um, rotten and decayed.

My sis had nothing better to do so she offered her services,
We had a debate on what to do with the ugly thing so we started all over.
Repainted the whole thing and added some stuff.
I even bought some utensils with my own money without refund know!

We were procrastinators we only started at 11pm.
Haha.
I didn’t get a picture of it tho.
It was plain but defo the neatest and newest looking one there can.

I was there since the event started till it ended.
First time I stayed that long. :|

Arrived and helped the perbarisan people straight away.

After that I just sat back and watch the runs and cheered for Syahbandar and friends.

Big big hugs and congrats to those who won !
Too many to mention, but you know who you are.
Especially Brenda for getting olahragawati for both her category and overall.
Claps claps. !

Ah yes, tug of war.
We lost sadly :(
Although im still in denial that we had the weaker slippery-er spot !
But we had fun :)
Bare foot in the muddy grass with the whole stadium cheering us on approximately 5 cms away was all worth it.
I was in absolute shock when the school was so generous to give us runner ups the silver medal.

Overall it was pretty competitive between the red and purple house.
Red won, making Jo Lyn the proud house captain.
I think sukan is getting dominated by the basketball kaki’s lah. :P
Woohoo.

So yeah,
Had heaps of fun just screaming around and oogling and people with long long legs and bicycle shorts dude. :P
Im definitely gonna miss sukan tahunan’s.

Starts weeping dramatically.

p.s/ I didn’t bother putting any sun block because I thought I could handle one day.
Dammit I was so wrong.
My face is red for two days straight.
Namely my nose and cheeks.
Whats more my body had multiple colour tones.
Awesome way to present myself lah,
Lagi lagi iu minggu ini.
Ya allah.

wikia

I feel this uncontrollably amount of energy and urge to do something.
Something but I don’t know what.
I feel busy but unbusy.
So many things I need to do/cover/achieve but such little times without neglecting those other other stuff.
Sigh.
Its April,
HOW CAN.
How can time fly so fast :(

I feel very monotonous-ish but puffed up. (?)

Time to take out the paper and schedule. (!)

Still trying to find the balance between everything.
Discarding those annoying excuses people make.
Zips mouth people. Zip.

Feeling how I felt 5 years ago.
In a good positive for-the-better-ish way, that prolly most might have not know.
And I have not taken the time to indulge my stories of tragedies with.

:)

Random pictures;

Because I feel teramat random.

Space shot at Genting

Failed doing the "jumping" picture

with the colour and the cropping,
this look like one of those photo's you see on tv movies,
where im that girl that's dead and you only have a memory of me with this photo.
:D

p.s/ Sukan was fab!
will update more soon.


and i thought i was immune to sun burns.

delegating

The remains of the photo’s in my camera;




























Gambar gambar cantik dari poloroid camera Lynette.
so happy when she let us take picture with it know . :D :D
sorry for the blurry pictures;
i took these pictures from my camera before realising that my new printer is also a scanner.













Tania convinced me into replacing her position in tug of war.
I was extremely reluctant but since I was a useless pig this year,
I decided to sumbang a little to my sports house.
Dah lah secretary but sumbang so little.
But today I manage to offer my services again by telling them I’d help in the perbarisan stuff on that day.
In the end I was asked to deco the sepanduk.
I haven’t been doing art in a while,
So do not throw tomatoes at me on that day please.

Haha,
About tarik tali…
We got into the finals.
And we’re against Red house.
Bahaha.
The top two houses this year.

I kinda regretted not joining the 1500m run.
I was at my grandma’s place when teacher called me to come to the stadium at that very moment.
Sigh,
Oh well Jasmine,
OH well..