big paradise

My mom finally spotter the article,
The highly anticipated article I always longed for.

Bring (typo) Bright Roving Annoying Teens.

Fyi, it’s a workshop by the Star to discover / nurture young writers and well, mould them into journalists.

My sis got it years back, and it had inspired me to be a journalist ever since
(although my parents strongly disagree because journalist in Negara kita very pokai)
:(

But hey im young,
So its not like im gonna dive into the journalism business,
Yet.

So im required to write a thousand word long essay about myself etc

I never knew wrting about myself would be this hard!
I even had to rujuk my blog a few times to really describe myself.

Whats worse is I only have 2 days including today because I guess we spotted the article a tad bit too late.

Gah I really want this.

you could too

Not feeling…
Myself.

I feel driven mentally,
But like a caterpillar physically.

You weakling!

I see people around me all pumped (or not)
To do
Something.

Even when they don’t have to do as much,
It still happens.

Toddler since already,
Its always the effort and how much not why.

Im gradually being
The exact contrary to the has been.

Its already natural and habitually I practice it.
Seeking whats right and supplementary profitable.
More or less like the terms of fwb but without the first.

I want confinement,
But I feel like I have a clog in between,
A big fat stumbling block in the way,
But I cant see it.
I just feel it.

The term of it is never adequate,
Is not overrated,
Should it be,
I wouldnt believe it anyway.

I need
Faith.

Cheesy enough.

I miss,
That over empowering feeling of amazing-ness.
That unconditional love to love.
That blissful joy to cry for being overjoyed.

Yes
I miss.

No this post isn’t for any of you to understand.

industrial corp

Finally, here is the video where we suprise Martin.
For those who hid at the stairs or kitchen,
and didnt get to experience
Rachel, Siew Lee, Tze Yin and my experience of watching it happen,
and starring at ma ah face to face in astonishment,
Here's how it happen!

sorry i totally forgot i was holding the camera i ter off it :(



link here


birthday song will be posted later :)

you cant handle me

with flash

First off a birthday wish to two people

Martin Lai which we managed to surprise him yesterday.

And mummy dearest which we manage to surprise also today :)

So yesterday I went to the Larian Mesra etc thingy.

I had a minor fever.
Didn’t really conquer me or such but it was there.
I still ran only for the sake its my last year.

So in the end I got number 17 I think.
(based on the paper I saw)
Not good.
I was hoping I would run better this year.

I wouldt blame it on the fever because I would just be “in denial”
Or trying to say I can run better without it.
(So don’t think im trying to make it sound that way)

We got ready and such and gathered at Martin’s house to surprise him.
Oh the awesome feeling of a successful surprise party :D
I have a little video clip which I will update soon alright.

And today my mom was shocked when we took her to Shogun.
GAH,
All the exercise from the Larian can just go poof with the amount of awesome food there.
I am sick of sushi
(for the time being)
Sushi will never taste the same
Shivers.

So these two days has been good.

But my fever got worse from the running under the sun I had to skip church.
14 hours of sleep is still not enough.

Not to mention my back feels like a bruised jelly.
Im suppose to skip school to go to the doctors tomorrow but I cant miss Monday’s subject.
So I’ll just have to bear with the pain till I skip school on Tuesday.

Off to eat my meds.

Here are all the pictures I took yesterday.
Excluding the videos.
So those who asked for the pictures, here are all of them :)

the three people who ter wore the same colour

without flash :D

exactly what i know.

Of all the timing in the world.
Im feeling weak to run :(

carry me home

I had plans for today.
School, cf, basketball and such.

But halfway through maths my back started to kill me.
Again.
so i went home from school during recess.

My backbone “disease” is back :(

It sucks so bad to have this

I wonder what would happen when im older

I’ll probably be some ugly crippled old lady with a huge hunched back making me shorter than I already am.

Incase your wondering,
I end up beating my lower back like an old lady/pregnant lady.
Occasionally getting bruise by it,
But I cant help hitting it because its so sour.
Just like a itch of a mosquito bite.

Yes I am slowly mutating into a old crippled lady.

Not to mention Larian Lebuh Raya / Larian Mesra / Larian Sihat (or whatever you call it) tomorrow.

Huhu.

I am only going for the sake of this is my last year.
But well I end up going ever year anyway so why not I just skip it.

Bah..

I need rest.




feels like i haven't touch my camera in ages

before the world began

Went to Aunty Kim’s townhouse yesterday during the Thaipusam holidays,
The girls went early morning to prepare the overloading food,
While the guys came later to treat us with a entertaining performance.

Played pictionary and watch Million Dollar Baby which was really good.

Came home, took bath and went off to tuition
(which was not as motivating)
Har-har.




















My dad is suprising my mom with a soft toy for her birthday.
Hahahahaha I find it really funny.

& I can hear bells downstairs because my sister tortured my little dog by putting on his collar.
He hates it.

stars are falling over us

I feel so guilty for abandoning my blog.
Har-har.

Ive been so busy !
Like today after school had a fast forward lunch and headed to klang to visit grandma.
No she aint sick or such
We just visit her 2 times a month or something.
Went to the mall nearby and im back already.

I haven’t had a peaceful sleepable weekend.
And I missed church for two weeks :(

Two weeks ago was that 5 hours course,
And this week I had a ball game.


Oh and another reason I hardly blog is cause my sister is always busy bumming around in my room, using my desktop, over excessively downloading her shows and sorts.

I end up doing homework in her room most of the time nowadays O_O
I haven’t touched my unread novels :(

So just to let you know,
Im doing ay-okay. :)


Check list :

Plans for tomorrow,
Plans for Wednesday,
Plans for Thursday,
Plans for Friday,
Plans for Saturday,
And plans for Sunday,
And the everyday of the week after that.

Yep I will be a zombie soon.

I bought something online for the first time!
Im so happy I tak boleh tunggu sudah.
:D

over and over again

Tell me again,
What you assured to me that day?

My sis and I were laughing our butts off when we were watching this on tv,
Even the next day when I was in class and started mentioning it to Lillian and Siew Lee,
Suddenly the back rows were singing it.

My mom fell asleep when it was showing and me and sis were saying how wasted it was.
I know it was gonna come up on youtube somehow.

But not THIS FAST
78677 has already viewed it but it was aired last Thursday.
And they have like a few on youtube already.

Common people.
You gotta watch and love him.
Did you realise he’s 44?




link here if unable to watch.

like that

The person told me that now I cant take the 6 hours course.
:(
I thought I would could get it all done but gah,
I’ll just have to wait now.
He said now their more strict or something so I’d better not take the risk incase I end up going for the course twice.

I passed my undang exam,
Got 4 answers wrong.
I think its kinda a weekly thing that they change the questions since they say if you wanna resit the exam you have to wait for another week.
And I saw the computer saying it was last uploaded yesterday.
So whoever’s taking it this week you can ask me for some tips :D
but wait,
i guess every place is different right.
entahlah

Okay,
Im feeling hungry
Will update later.


American Idol (auditions namely)
is so entertaining :D

soon

Hello hello

So right,
I thought I had all the time in the world to revise the undang book.
But I just started yesterday and I had a very busy Wednesday and supposingly I was suppose to attend a surprise party at Swenson,

Okay since the party has already started I might as well mention it’s Shing Vee’s party.
I could go and everything was perfect!
until well, I decided not to go. :(
not that my mom didn’t let me or anything bt yeah,
ade lah.

: (

So now I have extra time to spare and I missed training.
Gr I could have at least made use of my Friday evening by going training but I decided not to go to the party a few minutes ago.

Ya allah,
Kenapelah.


I have over pouring homeworks,
Yet I have no time this weekend.
I feel very deprived.

And I’ll be missing a game this Sunday :(
Why?
6 hours course.

My days cant get any worse.

My One Tree Hill cd has already departed :Da

candles

A very bried update because suddenly Wednesday and Thursday are my busy days.

Im rushing to do all the 500 questions in my preparation for undang exam this Saturday.

And the coolest thing is I get to sit for the 6 hours course which most people have to wait till their birthday.
Somehow I get to sit it before my birthday,
Legal can.

And of course;
I exclusively already watched One Tree Hill season FIVE episode 1
Which just released in the USA.
Huhuhu.
Please don’t ask me for it unless you have a thumbdrive.
:D


And a huge birthday shout out to the brother I never had
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIM SHING VEE

Have an awesome one!

Ps.
I Love accounts (tuition)

in possesion of something you dont

as much i like you

The 5 hours talk on road signs, how to be a good driver and what to do when this that happens was totally gibberish!

Not that it wasn’t useful and all,
But why not you just throw us that book,
Let us study and give us more questions.
I would rather more questions that a waste of 5 boring hours.

At least im another step closer to getting my license
O_O

I just realise how so many people are taking Bm tuitions,
When im not O_O
Not to say my bm very chun also.
So far last year I only remember getting A once when Puan Chieng was my teacher and B all the way after Puan Santi.

Of course my parents are expecting an A for Spm.
But what if I don’t get an A.
Its starting to bug me.

Or what if I fail my 1119.

I could study them,
But even if you have the time / will to study who on earth would study language right.
We might as well cramp our puny brains with Chemistry, History or Biology.

Anyways,
I painted Kae Lynn a tank top for her 21st birthday.
Im so sorry it didn’t turn out as nice,
I ran out of paint and I cant find it anywhere anymore :(

Its not just a slogan
It has ay hidden/direct meaning which i think only sesetengah people will get it :)

rantings

The weather is getting to me,
The temptation to turn the aircond on but I feel guilty for wasting electricity.
O_O

My mom says she cant make me new curtains before Chinese New Year.
:(
(yes she makes all the curtains in my house. Huhu)

So my painful eyes have to bear with this colour I never wanted.
If you ask,
Its pink by the way.
Near shocking.

Im not against it but not exactly the colour I wanted for my curtains.

Plus I never wanted the two purple two pastel pink sided walls.
I initially wanted two maroon and two white sided ones :(

Alas, im sure changing the curtains asap would make it less..
Pink that I imagine :|

Even my maroon tables don’t look maroon anymore.

The brightness is probably giving me a mentally thought that the weather is hot.

You know what we learn in seni where colours like blue and white makes it cooling :D

Seriously,
The heat is getting to me.

I cant believe they cancel the (note) Grammy's Emmy's due to the writer's strike!
I rindu Prison Break lah.
gr.

atten

note: is it just me or can anyone even view my cbox?

meelo

Having loads of random short updates,
Im sorry my brains are drying up.

So lets see,
We haven’t done much studying in class,
Recently the most buzzing thing we ever talk about is tuition..
And the fantastic people in it
Grins big big

Im feeling very lethargic and slug like now.
Urghhh.

Nanti I have basketball training and I dread the running.
O_O
But training kan training.

Taking the Undang course this weekend.
I am not even the slightest bit excited,
But sooner or later I have to get over it.
We can drive this year.
Squels around.


Toodledoo.
I shall go eat my chocolate cake I baked.

sweet sweet lavender

We had our project for EST titled The Universe.
By far the best topic !
Not to mention the easy amount of overdose information we had.

March is such a going to be busy month.
Class trips and exams and mssd and camp ! and loadsa stuff.
Please oh please oh please janganlah so sway and crash all together on the same day pleaseee.

Yay for we might move to the lowest floor,
Because someone ‘patah kaki’
Heh.
Boo for those who leave books in class because now you cannot.
Yay for me for I have a locker.
Huhu.

I think I might just fast forward my plans of switching my Tuesday evening accounts class to Wednesday night.
I am just MEANT to be there.
I so am.
I would love accounts tuition 500 % more.

Hallelujah!

all alone in the moonlight

The news of us getting to go back at 1.05pm on Wednesday totally made us sooo happy.

Ive got everything nicely arranged for the year.
(or so I think)

Chinese new year in less than a month.
Im one of those who loves Chinese new year,
Not because of the ang paos mind you.
It’s the meeting of cousins, newphews, nieces, uncles and aunts, and definitely my super ultra uber cute God bro.

I still cant get the hang of the tuition mood,
At least I only have two tuition days :D

Someone will be walking on sticks.
I knew this was coming.
Hmph!

p.s/ i know this might sound corny but my blog sudah satu tahun !
total post in a year?
358 which averages to nearly one post a day.
O_O

stare the picture right down the middle :P

I feel very crammed with negativity now.
I don’t know why but I feel cranky and the frustration building in me.

Well
For no reason.

I strongly think its that premenstrual syndrome,
But still its conquering me :(

I feel upset over this little matter,
Which is nobody’s fault really.

Its just that feeling of going,
Whyyyy lahh cant it be this this this
In your head.

I feel green

Oh yeah,
Have I mention im only getting my phone back in a week
It cause my phone kena virus and had to be reformat.
Im praying really hard my contacts are in my memory chip :(

twelve days of christmas ends now

I Am Legend is good,
Creepy
But good.
I really liked how it ended and how it went there.

You know how everyone definitely has at least one flaw.
And sometimes is varies and changes.

I really think my temper is real short.
Im getting so angry so fast I find it suffocating.

Sometimes I get really ticked over a really small matter,
Know I really shouldn’t and don’t have to be mad,
But still am anyways.

But gimme a minute or two,
To have a dramatic scene flashing in my head,
And I’ll be okay.
Really.

Of course unless its something I should be angry about.
Heh.

So here’s an apology if I ever make you see my wrongly.
Your probably socializing with me at the wrong time. :D

I admit though,
Im not one to jump around you, scream hi or bye at you from the other side of the block or run up to you for the sake of noticing that you have a new gadget and stuff.

so,
here’s me saying sorry if I ever done or said anything I might have offended you in any way.
I was just being cranky.

C:


p.s/
I am not sleeping in my room tonight,
Because im having non-realistic visuals from I Am Legend.
Bunking on sis’s rooms floor.
Haha.

Happy Birthday Kae Lynn !

i am not a fan, mind you

Its been awhile since i last liked any one of her songs.
i i think this is,
kinda okay.

enjoy.



click me, if you dont like the fitting.

lesson learnt

Feeling cranky for no reason.
Staying back and not going home and stuff till after my dinner time is kinda tiring.
It was raining cats and dogs,
So the La Senza paper bag I had was drench so badly,
It fell apart,
My things start falling on the road
Well, paper bag right.

Sudden urge to sleep now because mentally I feel exhausted.
Not physically though.

Training today was much different.
Probably something like a breath of fresh air again.
Thank goodness we didn’t have to do rounds because I will be wimpy.

Im ready for the new year and whats to come.



I had a better day today.

best not to care

food poisoning is so unnecessary now

cause i had a bad day

First day of school was fun,
Well it passed quickly enough,
Funny to see so many people around :|
Especially new faces.

Form 4’s getting sorted into classes
And going “eh oh yah, this year (insert name) form 3 hor”

Who says you have nothing to see.
I find this particular shy form 3 boy a litte adorable.
:P

Get free books yay!
And since my class is just so near the prefect room, I think I’ll make use of my locker.

Note to Ivan : gimme the locker key, I still have things in there :|

I guess I wasn’t use to the uniform all the sudden,
It felt like 45 degrees in there!

Already started studying and yes my engines are still active.

And yes!
My phone suddenly went bongkers,
I was halfway playing the south park game and it hanged.
Off and on and it still didn’t budge.
I know I have the warranty and stuff but all my info :(
I guess pictures and music are ok,
I can re download the themes and games too.
But all my contacts.
Nuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. :(

Anyone crazy enough to ikut me read the novel :P
I believe im the only few who actually reads them :|
Hides.

My blog is turning one in 4 days.
Hahahah

like a door knob

I had a really hard time waking up at 7 today.
How am I suppose to wake up ay 6.15 everyday now :|
Yes, I still have to go school early because im ze door opener.

School is starting and our class teacher is Puan Santi.
I like her :D
She’s a really nice reasonable teacher.
But nuuuuu, more terpesong karangans lah :(
because i always fail to get what she wants. ._.
But I cant deny she’s good, and its good that she’s strict right.

Gah spm
I don’t know why but im not taking it as I should.
I actually don’t feel like im taking spm.
Its like I think I have another year to it.

But we get to get our driver’s license this year which is why people oversea’s like their sixteenth birthday kan.
So since we only can get when were 17 why not we make our super 17’s ( yes remember I mention I wanna start calling 17, super 17 :D)
a more grand one :D

happy first of school, school-ers. O.O

seasons with no summer

superheroes :D

p.s/

I brought my Bat man tee over to kay's to change,
and he wore it. :|
& then we bumped into mr ivan who also wore it.
:D

all conincidental


Hi five batmans!

clip clipeedy clap

So basicly what I did on 31st,
Was just heading to Pyramid ( only for the sake of window shopping, a nice end year dinner and baskin )
Then, we headed back to Kay’s place right before the crowd came to Pyramid.

We watched National Treasure 2 though,
And in my opinion, if you’ve watched the first one,
Don’t bother watching the second because it’s about the same.

Oh we had lunch / brunch and Secret Recipe and dinner at Manhattan fish where we all shared a huge platter.

Yes just the four of us,
While some others
Enjoy Clubbing, counting down in Bukit Bintang or a church member’s bungalow.
Yes, I think no matter where we were or what we did,
We’ve all had our fair share of enjoyment,
And lets just brace ourselves for this year and another
366 days ( leap year mah )
to another funfilled countdown.

:)

So here I am,
To start with the new year,
I bet lots is gonna happen between these 366 days,
but whats the fun with a hard heart and without a goodwill goodstart resolutions and right.

So lets all just
Live more,
Appreciate more,
Love more,